January is almost over and this is my first blog of the year.
2009 is here and I must say, I thought it would be BETTER!!! Yes, I was expecting everything to all of a sudden change from crappy to wonderful like a flip of a switch when the new year came. No such luck. Ha! I'm still holding on to hope though! I feel like the month FLEW by - between working non-stop, Matt working non-stop and us both being sick with icky colds... I don't think we've had a chance to really enjoy each other or life yet this year.
To add to God's cruel little jokes (I am saying this with a smile, I do trust him!!), here's what's been going on besides the chaos of two people struggling to make ends meet in a rotten economy while fighting off colds:
Granny:
2008
She's had a brain tumor for years. Sucks. She was diagnosed with blood cancer at the end of of the year. I won't ever ask "Can things get worse???" because I know, the obvious answer is "YES!"
2009
She's been in the hospital because she had a stroke (or a series of strokes), which impeded the operation of her legs and her speech. She's home now and recovering - thank goodness!!!!
Dad:
2008
He's had his muscular/neurological disease for years.. He has really bad heart problems. He was in the hospital at the end of 2008 for breathing related issues.
2009
Diagnosed with emphasema. He smoked when he was a teenager/young adult... seriously, he quit 37 years ago when my mom got pregnant w/ my brother. The docs are guessing that the emphasema stemmed from inhaling chemicals (aka asbestos?) over long periods of time. Frickin AWESOME.
I'm in a weird state right now where half of me wants to SCREAM and half of me wants to CRY. Life just isn't fair. I realize this and accept it, but I still want to kick and scream about it a little bit. I feel discouraged, unfocused and disconnected. I'm hoping that I will be able to settle down a bit, relax, enjoy the company of friends and get my life (aka messy house) back in order this weekend so I can start FRESH in February.
But, 2009 has also brought GOOD things along too!
My sister in law gave birth to a BEAUTIFUL baby girl on January 25!!!!!!!! My little niece (Miriana Marie) is gorgeous!!!!!!! Apparently, Mr. Matt has never been around a newborn before. He is absolutely, positively, 100% infatuated with this little girl and I love it!!!!
We booked a CRUISE!! WOOT WOOT!!! Our neighbors asked us to go on a cruise with them and we decided to do it! I am so excited!!! We desperately need a vacation and this one will be so much fun! I already have a sitter lined up for Reggie and everything!!! Now I have to go clothes shopping!!! Oh darn! hee hee!!!
So here's to hoping that the good starts to outweigh the bad as 2009 progresses. Cheers!
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Since when is January part of the New Year... I thought the New Year started in February, with the Chinese tradition... there's STILL hope!!! Clear out crappy year of the Rat... and welcome year of the Ox!! Hugs to you my friend!
Amy, this made me tear up. You are so strong and supportive of all your family members. I know that things will get better for you, but that doesn't make it any easier NOW. Hang in there and do what you can to just rest and take care of yourself; that way you'll have the phsyical and emotional energy to keep helping others. I really admire you and am keeping your family in my prayers.
And I agree with Alison -- the ox is all yours, baby!
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